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Winner of the April “My Gutsy Story” contest

May 17, 2012 by Sonia Marsh

Esther Goodman

 

Greetings from Paris, where I’m announcing the WINNER of the APRIL “My Gutsy Story” contest.

 

 

Esther Goodman

1st place: “Felicitations en francais” Congratulations to Esther Goodman, winner of the April 2012, “My Gutsy Story” contest. In her post, Esther wrote about her Holocaust Revelations. “The journey I took gathering and researching information world wide, and the relationships I formed trying to connect the dots to my mother’s past.”

Your wonderful fans all voted to support you. Well Done Esther.

Keren-Niccole Bunnell

2nd place:Keren-Nicocole Bunnell. Congratulations Keren. You are truly a hero for taking care of your younger siblings, after your parents passed. Not only did you help them grow up, but you also have an extremely talented family of musicians.

 

JoAnn Abraham

3rd Place: JoAnn Abraham wrote a story which I’m sure will help others who suffer from a fear of heights, escalators, boat ramps and more. The photo you submitted is proof that you have overcome one of your fears. Well done and thanks for submitting.

Rebecca Hall

 4th place: Rebecca Hall  is the perfect example of someone who has chosen to follow her passion, and not  feel that she is “stuck” in a place or a job she  doesn’t like. Good for her for finding happiness somewhere other than where she was born and raised, despite what her family and friends may think.

 

Ritchie White

5th place: Richard White AKA Shotgun Bo Rivers, shared his enthusiasm for rodeo with us, and how his amazing eight-second ride, impacted his life. Richard also served in the U.S. Armed forces.

You are all WINNERS, with such amazing writing and stories to share. Thank you for participating, and to all VOTERS for taking part.

Our WINNER Esther Goodman  gets to select his prize from our new list of SPONSORS,

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“My Gutsy Story” by Kathleen Pooler

May 14, 2012 by Sonia Marsh

 

Choices and Chances

            Sitting by the bay window on that sunny September day in 1989 soon after we moved from Missouri to Cobleskill, New York, I stared out into the afternoon.  I was suspended in a state of pain and worry as I dutifully watched and waited for my fourteen-year old son, Brian, hoping that my anxiety was unjustified. Being a single parent of two teenagers heightened my sense of loneliness and helplessness. I recalled the times I spent waiting for Jim at the dining room window when I was pregnant with Brian. The painful memory repeated itself in brazen detail. I wanted to turn the channel and make it go away. The flashback held me hostage as I sat motionless and scared waiting for the movie I didn’t want to watch.

Jolted from my trance by the rattling at the back door, I walked into the kitchen to find Brian opening the door with more caution than seemed necessary.

“Hey, Mom, what’s up?” he said, staring at me through glassy eyes as he swayed on unsteady feet. It was painfully reminiscent of his father’s look thirteen years before which had precipitated my flight from the marriage. Brian was eighteen months old and his older sister, Leigh Ann, was three when I began my life as a single parent.

He stumbled, reeled and fell on the floor at my feet as I looked on in horror and disbelief. His dark eyes, flashing and blazing from some unknown odorless substance, were fixed somewhere beyond me while I was locked in the reality of the moment. A searing pain in its rawest form pierced me, sending my heavy heart crashing down onto my churning stomach.  The panic tried to escape as I struggled to find my next breath.

“No, Brian, please no, not this,” I cried, deep, wracking sobs that left me weak and shattered.

My handsome and sensitive young son, developing and growing into manhood, was slipping away.

Those eyes. That moment. Those eyes that drew me in and captured my heart all those years ago.

I flashed back to a happier day when he was four years old. Intense and thoughtful, he was always concerned about the little things in his world, like his little neighborhood playmates. One summer day after giving him a Popsicle, I snapped a picture of him at the end of the driveway sharing it with  his three year old playmate, Becky. Two tykes taking turns licking the dripping orange frozen treat became a precious moment in time etched in my mind and heart.

But the scene before me in 1989 would signal the beginning of many episodic nights of terror as I waited and wondered where Brian was; wondered if he was dead or alive for nearly twenty years to come. I hung tightly to the reins of that young stallion on the first ride of spring. I was spiraling out of control as well, hanging on in nerve-wracking, futile attempts to maintain my own control. The lessons came slowly as I opened up in Alanon meetings.  Loving veterans of alcohol battles listened and consoled as I spewed out floods of tears and pleas of desperation. They helped me to learn to navigate the mine fields of an alcoholic loved one’s life.

One snowy March night in 2002 at 2:00 AM a loud tapping at our front door awakened my new husband, Wayne and me from our sleep. We knew from recent phone calls that Brian had relapsed. Looking at each other through foggy eyes, we tried to focus while slowly arising to answer the door as a sense of dread hung over us. Through the glass panel at the side of the door, I saw Brian’s tall, dark outline against the soft, fluffy flakes of snow that were coating the trees behind him.

Slowly opening the door, I looked into his dark eyes. They always told me the story. I watched him trying to act normal, shifting his position in awkward attempts to act sober. His breath was stale, but he was neatly groomed in jeans, a sweater and a navy pea coat. He smelled of Aramis cologne.

“Hey, Mom.” He said, greeting me casually as if he had just run into me in the grocery store. I hadn’t seen him since Christmas.

“Brian,” I asked, shaking my head and closing the door as he stepped inside, “what are you doing here?”

“I just drive to Cobleskill. I stopped to see Coach Collins earlier at the school then just hung out with Justin.” He paused briefly,

“ Mom, I need a place to stay tonight.”

“You drove three hours from Connecticut to Cobleskill at this hour?”

“What’s wrong with that?” he answered with an escalating edgy tone.

“You’re not staying, Brian,” Wayne said, as he stood behind me in the hallway.

Brian bristled in response, looking down at the floor with his hands in his jean pockets. Then he fixed his angry glare on me.

Sitting on the couch, I wrapped my arms together and leaned forward on my lap. I knew Wayne was right but how could I turn my only son back out into that snowy night without a place to stay?

Rocking back and forth in silence, I watched Brian stalling for time in the doorway.

After a few moments that felt endless, I walked over to him. Taking a deep breath, I put my arms around his waist and out came the words I knew I had to say:

“If anyone knows how to get help, B, you do. I love you very much. Now go do what you know you need to do.”

As I watched him walk out into that snowy night to his car, I wondered if I would ever see him alive again.

It was my darkest moment; my only choice and his only chance.

It got worse before it got better but I often think of that night as the time I truly let go. Ten years later, Brian is sober. I believe with all my heart that this decision saved his life.

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Kathleen Pooler’s Bio:

            Kathleen Pooler is a writer and a recently retired Family Nurse Practitioner who is working on a memoir about how the power of hope through her faith in God has helped her to transform, heal and transcend life’s obstacles and disappointments: divorce, single parenting, loving and letting go of an alcoholic son, cancer and heart failure to live a life of joy and contentment. She believes that hope matters and that we are all strengthened and enlightened when we share our stories. She lives with her husband, Wayne on the 130-acre farm at the foothills of the Adirondacks in Eastern New York State where his grandfather used to have a dairy farm. Wayne grows organic vegetables on four of those acres and sells them at the local farmer’s market. Their seven grandsons (3-9) are a constant source of joy to them.

            She blogs weekly at her Memoir Writer’s Journey blog: http://krpooler.com and can be found on Twitter @kathypooler and on LinkedIn, Facebook and Google+ at Kathleen Pooler.

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Sonia Says:  Kathleen, what an emotional story of the love a mother has for her son, no matter what.  There are many parents who can relate to problem teenagers, even though the severity of the situation varies considerably. You made us realize that “tough love” is often the only approach, and how difficult it is for parents to carry through with this process. Your story reminded me of A Beautiful Boy by David Sheff. I’m sure you read his memoir. I cannot wait to read your memoir when it is published.

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Vote for your favorite April “My Gutsy Story”

May 3, 2012 by Sonia Marsh

From May 3rd until May 16th, at midnight, PST, you can vote for your favorite April 2012, “My Gutsy Story.”

To VOTE, please go to the poll on the right  side of this post. You will find it on the sidebar listing the names of all 5 “My Gutsy Story,” authors.

Here are the 5 fabulous stories. Only ONE vote per person.

1). JoAnn Abraham

 

JoAnn Abraham

 

 

2). Esther Goodman

 

Esther Goodman

 

3). Richard White

 

Ritchie White

4). Keren-Niccole Bunnell

 

Keren-Niccole Bunnell

5). Rebecca Hall

 

Rebecca Hall

 

Thanks to these FIVE wonderful writers who opened up and shared their own “My Gutsy Story” for us to read.

April’s winner will be announced on May 17th, from Paris, where I shall be landing on May 16th. The winner gets to pick his/her prize from our 14 sponsors.

Good Luck to all of you. Your stories are amazing and inspiring. Please share these stories with friends and fellow writers and bloggers by clicking on the SHARE links below.

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 Above Photo credit Stock Photo

 

 

“My Gutsy Story” by Keren-Niccole Bunnell

April 23, 2012 by Sonia Marsh

The Guardianship Mission

“Sunny skies and fair weather today,” reported the Weather Channel app on my iPhone. Indeed, it was a beautiful day with the soft breeze wafting in salt air from the ocean less than a mile away. But today, my brother, three younger sisters and I barely noticed the lovely weather. We were on a mission. I squeezed our white sedan into the last downtown parking space available and chattering in nervous anticipation, we strode down the bustling city streets to arrive at the San Diego Family Claims courthouse. We had received a summons to appear in court per my petition to become the legal guardian of my four siblings who ranged in age from 15 to 19. At 21 I was just barely old enough to do so, and, despite having prepared this with my lawyer for several weeks, I was struggling to keep up an outwardly cool composure.
Standing in a huddle before the imposing, red brick building, I realized that for the past month, the five of us had wandered like sheep without shepherds, confused and bewildered. After years of living in a safe, secure, homeschooled environment, we suddenly found ourselves quite alone in the world. Our father had died in 2007 after a devastating battle with melanoma that had penetrated his brain, changing his personality and slowly robbing him of his memory. One year after our father died, our mother was diagnosed with colon cancer. Month by month we watched her painfully slip away. We had buried her besides Dad only a few weeks before. As the oldest, it was now time for me to step up to the plate and fill the role of head of our little household.
Taking a deep breath, I pulled open the heavy glass door and we walked in. Two security officers, each fully equipped with guns, a radio and a club were on hand to greet us, cheerfully confiscating our bags and dumping them into plastic bins, which were rolled down the conveyor belt into a security checking system.
In the lobby it was hot and crowded with people. An almost tangible presence of problems permeated the room. On a bench against the wall slumped a dejected lady with tangled gray hair, wearing a dirty pink dress. She sat motionless, holding her head in her hands. In one corner, a black man argued loudly with a city employee while in another corner, a haggard mother filled out paperwork with two small boys clinging to her skirt. It seemed that there were sad stories to be read in the eyes of the many troubled individuals we saw there.
We waited anxiously in a noisy hall until a sheriff opened the courtroom door with a flourish. The actual courtroom was quite small and every chair was soon filled as all awaited the appearance of the judge. A hush settled over the room; wisps of muted conversation rose and fell. A baby began to wail; the sheriff scowled. I sat rigidly in my seat, gripping the armrests with sweaty palms as waves of apprehension swept over me. Butterflies fluttered uncomfortably in my stomach. The courtroom officials were busy in their own familiar little world: the stenographer, with her tidy hair and efficient fingers set up her miniature typing machine; the bailiff in her police uniform, her hair coiled into a smooth bun, was quite pretty; the interpreter, an older, professional-looking Spanish woman, sifted through stacks of papers and gazed around the room with a sigh.
At last, the judge strode in, his long black robe flowing behind him. I watched him with uneasy curiosity as he organized his desk then called up the first case. He looked to be in his fifties and had a definitive air of authority about him. As each group stood to plead their case before him my apprehension deepened. He was neither kind, nor sympathetic. His responses were blunt and impartial, and most of the people went away rejected, rescheduled and frustrated. I quickly discovered that I was right about the sad stories; there was not a happy one among them. Bitterness, anger, even hatred was rife in their voices and gestures.
Standing before the judge was even more intimidating than I had expected. He carefully scrutinized my face as he listened to our lawyer justify my appeal. How grateful I was not to say anything! I would probably have choked up or scrambled my words as I usually do when I’m nervous. When the lawyer finished explaining our situation and pleading our case, the judge sat silent for a long moment. His response shocked everyone in the audience. My breath caught in my throat and stayed there as the judge praised our strength and courage in the face of our circumstances and complimented my siblings for their support and submission. I blushed beet red and my heart flip-flopped wildly. There was a profound hush in the room; even the baby had ceased to wail. “I grant your petition and I whole-heartedly wish you good fortune in your lives,” the judge finished. I breathed out a tremendous sigh of relief. With the eyes of everyone upon us, we walked out wreathed in smiles. Notwithstanding our calm and happy exterior, we were really skipping and dancing, singing and shouting in pure delight.
Walking back through the lobby I found that the aura of troubles and heartaches no longer seemed so oppressive. There were brighter and happier days ahead for the careworn people gathered here, just as I knew there would be for us. Leaving the courthouse, we were entering a new phase of our lives in which five, very young adults would be the supreme law-inventors and decision-makers in our childhood home. As we merrily crammed back into our little car, bubbling over with laughter and pride, we did not yet know of the lessons, hardships, sorrows and joys that were in the road ahead.

About Keren-Niccole Bunnell and her family:

My dad was a Lieutenant Commander in the Navy and my mom was a stay-at-home mom.  She home schooled my four younger siblings and me all the way through high school.  Unfortunately, my parents died within three years of each other after devastating battles with cancer.  I became the legal guardian of my minor siblings at the age of 21 and now, two years later, the five of us are attending the same university together on full music scholarships.

Besides performing in Southern California as a string quintet, my three sisters, our little brother and I love to backpack and we have section hiked the Pacific Crest Trail from Mexico to the Anza Borrego desert.  For the next four months we are training as a team to run in the Rock & Roll marathon which is held in San Diego (it will be our second marathon).  In late spring, we will board an airplane for the very first time and tour the east coast, performing in concerts with our college choir and orchestra.  The past two years have been a time of healing and growing together as a family and the future ahead is so exciting!

My website is: http://bunnellstrings.com/ and you can follow me on Facebook.

Sonia Marsh Says:

Like all who have read your story, I am in admiration of you and your family. Keren, you seem so mature, and after e-mailing back and forth, I am grateful that your parents raised an amazing daughter who took charge of her family after such tragedy. You are truly a hero. What a talented family you are, and thank you for taking care of your siblings at such a young age.

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“My Gutsy Story” by Richard White

April 16, 2012 by Sonia Marsh

“Shotgun Bo Rivers”

“One Crazy 8 Second Ride”

As a child, I could only dream of it. Climbing onto the back of a crazy two thousand pound animal, in the midst of fear and adversity, I had to do it.

I have always loved the rodeo, and wished that I could be a cowboy; but what I was in for, was a lot more than I had bargained for, at least in the beginning.

It all began when I was sixteen-years- old. Some friends asked me to watch them ride, and I said, “yes”.  I watched them behind the chutes gear up, rosin their ropes, and decided I had to try this at least once.  That was what I told myself back then, just once.

Two weeks later, I convinced my dad that it would be OK to ride and needed him to sign a release form because I was under eighteen.  With any gear, I made my way to the rodeo for the first time. I was going to ride, just once, I told myself, just once.

“Climbing into chute number four comes a brand new cowboy, Ritchie White, from Danby Vermont.” I went nuts. He called me a cowboy, Yeehaw, I thought.  As instructed, I gently placed a loaner rope down over the side of the bull and looped it around. Here we go, the blood in my body boiled from excitement, and the hair on the back of my neck stood up as I sat down on the back of #465 Johnny Reb.  A two thousand pound Brahma bull with the biggest hump I had ever seen on a bull.

Finally set in my rope I nodded, and the Brooks and Dunn blared through the speakers as my chute gate opened.  Johnny Reb jumped out, first right, then left, flinging me in every direction but loose.  I got back to my seat, gripped hard with my legs, and spurred him in his enormous side, which made him madder and meaner. He spun in circles to my left, which was great. It was a perfect seating arrangement as most boys would say.  The buzzer sounded, and I made it to eight. My first time on, and I made it to eight.  The rush I felt from the bottom of my boots all the way to my neck was unbelievable. Shaking from the experience, I needed to get off my bull.  I yanked the rope with my free hand and leaped off, running for all of my might.  The crowd cheered, and the sound echoed across the mountaintop.

“That’s a 60 point ride for that cowboy, give him a hand, he sure deserves it tonight,” the announcer exclaimed.

I could never really explain the rush I felt that day. It fueled my soul. I wanted more, and I needed more.  I had the time of my life, freedom with just one crazy eight-second ride and me.  I spent the next nine years riding Bulls and eventually Bareback Broncs.

Richard White Saloon

Every time I ride, I remember trying the impossible, just once, and how it turned into something I was born to do. This changed my life forever as it pumped through my veins.  If I could turn back time I wouldn’t change a thing. I have met some of the most gracious people in the rodeo circuits, and hold a very special place in my heart for each, and every one of them.

 Richard White Bio:

My name is Richard White, AKA (Pen Name) Shotgun Bo Rivers, and I grew up in a little town called Danby, VT. At the age of thirty-one, I looked back at all the places I’ve traveled to while in the U.S. Armed Forces: Germany, Bosnia, Iraq, and Afghanistan, and realized what a great journey it has been. After returning home and recovering from injuries in the Army, I became a Professional Bull rider, and amateur Bareback Bronc rider.  I found love and passion in the sport of rodeo, where I not only gained respect, but also gave it in return to fellow cowboys, and cowgirls in the rodeo circuit.  I have learned to respect and love the animals of the sport.  In Rodeo, bulls are my favorite, but as an everyday cowboy, I’m also passionate about horses. I was once told that I had mustang blood in me, which led to the poem that I wrote Wild Horse in my book: Pages Full of Memories.

Laramie's Thunder Cover

In 2007, my fiancé, now wife, and I had a little girl, Madison Jean White. This led to my semi-retirement from rodeo. I still hope to ride bulls for at least one more year.
I have been writing for eighteen years, and after two years of research and lots of coffee, I self-published my first two books:  Pages Full of Memories, and Rodeo Dayz. I am currently writing a western novel Laramie’s Thunder The Collins’ Crew. I hope to make a difference, and help the western genre come back to the top. I have enjoyed writing stories and poems, and my readers tell me they enjoy them. Please visit my website, and join me on Facebook and my Twitter handle is @shotgunborivers.

Sonia Marsh says:

Richard White, or should I call you Shotgun Bo Rivers, thanks for sharing your enthusiasm for rodeo with us, and how your amazing eight-second ride, impacted your life. I also want to thank you for your years of service in the U.S. Armed forces. All the best with your future stories.

Please leave your comments and questions for Richard White below.

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