My three sons at Laguna Beach January 2009
Now please don’t get me wrong, I love my kids, but I’ve always preferred it when they were in school, especially when they were younger.
For years and years, I’d hear other mothers say, “I’m so looking forward to the summer when we no longer have hectic schedules.” For some reason, I never agreed with them. Well that may not be surprising, since I tend to have different opinions about many things–perhaps living in different countries does that to a person.
You see, I have the guilt thing going during the summer. I’m fortunate that I don’t have to be in an office at a certain time, however, I force myself to stick to a writing schedule. I also stick to a gym schedule every morning at 6 a.m., as I want my husband and I to stay fit for our older years. Since I cannot sit in an office chair for most of the day, without knowing that the blood is flowing in my veins first, I have a disciplined schedule for myself, whether or not my kids are on vacation.
The guilt kicks in when I know my kids enjoy me taking them out to breakfast, or to shop, or for a coffee or tea and a chat. Yes, two out of three sons are still home with me, and they enjoy my company–at least that’s what I keep telling myself. I feel like I can go for 2-3 days max without taking them anywhere, and then I have to entertain them. Besides, Austin, my 18-year-old is off to UCSB, a gorgeous campus on the Pacific coast– see some photos here University of California in Santa Barbara at the end of July. I feel guilty if I don’t enjoy his company as much as possible before he leaves for four years of college.
As far as sports and friends, Jordan, 15, comes to the gym at 6 a.m. with me to run, and Austin jogs, plays tennis or kickball with his friends. The rest of the time they like to stay home, watch TV or sit in front of their computer.
What are your thoughts on this? Do you have guilt like me?
Should I just quit feeling guilty?